Making full use of nature’s generosity, the old man laid under the tree and looked up to the clear yet ironically mysterious blue sky. His thoughts like a hammer against a nail was pounding through his mind, was killing him. A smile he had always shown to others vanished when he’s alone. The face that was always so bright turned into a void of emptiness. Leathery wrinkles begin to surface and the eyes that was once lit fiercely had it’s flame diminished as the clock ticks. He didn’t understand the meaning or rather the profoundity of life. All he sees is an imagery of a barren wasteland which holds no meaning of hope. The monotonous and mundane cycle of life is slaughtering him alive akin to an invisible dagger dipped in deadly toxin stabbing him slowly, day by day.

Where is the light for him? Where is the tunnel where many speaks of?

Where?

God if you exists, please hurry. You of all should know that time waits for no one.

Anyway, had a late cny reunion dinner with my bros yesterday. I really can’t organise things man because i am sucha lazy ass myself. Thankfully for damian, eugene and the rest, this event kinda pulled off. Sure, the location ain’t perfect, the food ain’t mind blowing but the company bagged both . We gambled until the early morning at keith’s place, drinking booze and playing cards. Gambling ain’t an obessesion for me but you see.. this is an activity for guys man. This is how we bond no matter how retarded it sounds .

p/s : Taeyeon from snsd has quite an impressive vocal.

(,”)=O <– this is so cute.

Has my heart gone barren and wasted?

It suddenly became a platform for the little devils to run wild.

acrimonious, i am.

Felt so guilty that i went to club with my friends instead of going to dine with my primary school friends who had booked me long ago. Yeah i know that it’s already over but still. Anyway, it was shawn’s farewell party before he book in! Good luck, braaather armstrong! HAHA! I spent $85 on club that night man! Wth! I usually spend 35 only ! What’s worse, i went in for half an hour and took a cab home.. nb.. 1 Ak-47, 2 Flaming, 1 graveyard, 1 blue splint, 2 long island, barcadi apple and misc = no joke man. What’s even funnier is that i got home drunk but subconsciously, i hid my cigarettes! omg, my auto pilot state still knows how to take care of myself! HAHA!

12th Feb

This was the big big day for my dear bestie Vitoria! I was really sad that she left for aussie for a period of 4 years! Then again, she left for the better! She’s gonna come back with a lawyer degree ! Jiayou huh! Like i said, there is no need for an essay of “igonnamissyou” talk. We gonna talk again so soon! Not forgetting webcam !

Later at night, braaaather kang came to find me for a mini h2ht session before heading off for KKM with leo, weijie, shijie and eugene! We gambled after that! Haha, won $2 overall! ( gambled 3 1/2 hours -__- ). Leo the bomberman!

p/s: NO SUPPER FOR A MONTH.

YAY! All alone on vday! HAHAHA. Ok lah, first of all, i don’t have the balls to ask the one i want. Secondly, i admit that i am bothered by this day, recalling the past memories but it’s okay, everything will work out naturally. All i have to do is leave it in the hands of almighty time! Afterall, this day appears every year. It’s just a passing phase to show the beauty of love, if you’re single then so be it, the right one will come soon!

Argh, was blissfully sleeping until i woke up suddenly around 11.30pm? Think even my brain couldn’t stand my lack of urgency to complete my assignments on time that it decided to stir me up. Anyway, i had been awake ever since, it’s 4:22am now btw. Think i shall make breakfast for my family and go for a run later on! And yes, minus the procrastination, i completed the assignments in which i thought is a fair amount of time!

Oh, had a mini catch up session with yaoguang just now! We talked and smoked. Simple yet fulfilling! Can’t wait for dinner with my poly mates later on! Till then~

p/s: Fuck the exam on friday!

p/s/s: oh yah, the advertisement i was in was hilarious! felt like a total buffoon

Sigh, got to give half my angbao $$ to my brother to invest in stocks. It’s more like forced to give him cause my family think i am very skilled in wasting money. Tmd.

Anyway let’s see my total haul in gambling for this cny

Day 1 – won 30+ in blackjack. won 7 in mahjong.

Day 2 – won 2 in blackjack. won 83 in mahjong.

Day 3 -lost 49 in mahjong.

hate day 3! It so happens that cherlyn massed tapped my shoulder yest night. I can’t help but be more superstitious from now onwards man! Never ever let anyone tap your shoulder while you gamble! Luck will like suay like hell!

Okay, gotta study now. till then !